well, i didnt mean to abandon my blog. it just happened. like how a series of events has occurred for the past few weeks. it just happened unexpectedly. i actually wrote a few posts, posted it up and the next minute, i just deleted it. and post count has stucked at 140 posts for i dont know how many months. and for an old blogger like me, it is pretty pathetic in fact.
i told you. i'll push you away if you are too close. you didnt listen. i ended up hurting you and myself. i did somehow realised that i really did care and for a moment there, i really wanted to give you a chance. but so many reasons pull me back from doing so. but if you want to move on, go ahead. because i dont rush and i like to go with the flow. if you cant handle that, thats too bad.
about the other thing, maybe i'm getting really hot tempered these days. but i really cant control it. i dont usually say it out but, it really bugs me when people trying to step into my business. after i determine that a particular person is annoying (which dont usually happens) , the closer the person get, the further i'll distance. so grab that hint, leave me and my business alone before i start to ignore.
i'm sorry. i have been in some sort of situation which drives me emotionally. when everything else seem so negative, there's always something you'll get or learn. it really depends how you see it. in my opinion, all these really stimulate me to grow mentally, as in taught me to become more mature and stronger indirectly. somehow i feel i become more emotionless though. hahaha. :) thats all for now.
